I haven't been in a relationship (sexually or otherwise) for over a decade - but now, I've reached my breaking point! This is where the flesh vs. spirit fight comes in. On one hand, my spirit man says "hold on, keep going, your husband is on the way...it will be worth the wait!" On the other hand, my fleshy man says "pul-leaze...he's not coming. Go 'head....screw ANYTHING that walks! It'll make you feel real good!"
At this stage of my life, at soon-to-be 37, I can't afford to settle for less than what I'm worth. The calling upon my life is too great for me to settle for just anybody. But, when I start gazing into how well a man fills his pants, then I SERIOUSLY have a problem! And if he's bow-legged, you need to pray for me IMMEDIATELY! I have a very vivid imagination - trust me! Cold showers and chocolates just don't do it for me!
Nevertheless, I'll keep holding on. When I really think about it, I have no other choice in the matter. Yeah, I could fall into temptation, have sex, feel guilty, repent and wait another 10 years for a husband, but it's not worth it. Yes, God gives us free will to serve Him, but once you've experience Jesus Christ, what is there to go back to? Sin? Condemnation? Guilt? I don't think so. God's already dealing with me with my thought life - I really don't need to act on it, too (no matter how tempted I am!)
JESUS, TAKE THE WHEEL.....!
Until next time...
