Today, my father passed away at 2:24pm from cancer. We've had a rocky relationship for many years. There's a point that we haven't spoken for years! I feel like Tupac "...my heart wouldn't let me mourn for a stranger." So I feel numb.
The good news is that he called me and apologized for being crappy father. We've made peace since then. His last request was a photo of me and my mother at my brother's wedding. But my mother didn't like the photo we've taken, so I've never sent it. I wish I did!
Now, I'm contemplating if I want to go to the funeral. I intentionally separated myself from the rest of the family because I don't want to be part of their constant drama. It's ridiculous! I don't know how to feel.
Anway...until next time.....
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
New Family Member - Chapter 46
On July 3rd, my brother got married to his girlfriend of 6 years. The ceremony was beautiful, and I was even asked to read a scripture at the wedding. The reception was wonderful as well. The most amazing part of this experience is the coming together of 2 families. My sister-in-law's family is a nice group of people.
My prayer is that this marriage lasts. Unfortunately, marriages have not lasted long in my family. Either they divorce, or stay in an unhappy, miserable marriage (which ends up in divorce anyway)! My prayer is that this generational curse will break, in Jesus' name! In a way, I'm actually glad that I'm still single (shocking...I know!). With eyes wide open, I see that people get married for all the wrong reasons. Whether it is for money, for sex or to cure loneliness, I have rarely seen couples get married for genuine, sincere love - that is until now.
Anyway, I'm happy for my brother and my new sister-in-law. Frankly speaking, she's earned the title of "wife!" She's tolerated my brother's ism's and schism's for over 6 years - and loves him in spite of them (trust me, I know my brother and how he can be)! I pray that they will be just as happy together 30 years from now as they were when they wed. It gives me something to look forward to when it's my turn!
Until next time...
My prayer is that this marriage lasts. Unfortunately, marriages have not lasted long in my family. Either they divorce, or stay in an unhappy, miserable marriage (which ends up in divorce anyway)! My prayer is that this generational curse will break, in Jesus' name! In a way, I'm actually glad that I'm still single (shocking...I know!). With eyes wide open, I see that people get married for all the wrong reasons. Whether it is for money, for sex or to cure loneliness, I have rarely seen couples get married for genuine, sincere love - that is until now.
Anyway, I'm happy for my brother and my new sister-in-law. Frankly speaking, she's earned the title of "wife!" She's tolerated my brother's ism's and schism's for over 6 years - and loves him in spite of them (trust me, I know my brother and how he can be)! I pray that they will be just as happy together 30 years from now as they were when they wed. It gives me something to look forward to when it's my turn!
Until next time...
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